**Leben** [Anm. v. admin: Vorsicht Trigger]

Der Druck ist so groß
Deine Adern pochen
Du willst schreien
Du bekommst keinen Ton raus
Dein Kopf zerspringt
In tausend Teile
Nichts hilft dir
Du greifst
Die Klinge
Das Blut fließt
Deine Anspannung
Wird weniger
Ein innerlicher Schrei
Du atmest tief ein

Das Blut
Läuft herunter
Tropft
Überall hin
Du bist frei
Du hast die Gewalt
Versinkst in Gefühlen
Die dich auffressen
Und trotzdem ein Hauch von Freiheit

Du hasst dich
Du wolltest das nicht
Du hast es wieder getan
Wolltest frei sein
Und bist gefangen
In deiner Welt
Die niemand versteht
Nicht einmal du

Kommst du raus?

Cut

(font2)For Susan O%27Neill Roe(/font2)

What a thrill ---
My thumb instead of an onion.
The top quite gone
Except for a sort of a hinge

Of skin,
A flap like a hat,
Dead white.
Then that red plush.

Little pilgrim,
The Indian%27s axed your scalp.
Your turkey wattle
Carpet rolls

Straight from the heart.
I step on it,
Clutching my bottle
Of pink fizz.

A celebration, this is.
Out of a gap
A million soldiers run,
Redcoats, every one.

Whose side are they on?
O my
Homunculus, I am ill.
I have taken a pill to kill

The thin
Papery feeling.
Saboteur,
Kamikaze man ---

The stain on your
Gauze Ku Klux Klan
Babushka
Darkens and tarnishes and when

The balled
Pulp of your heart
Confronts its small
Mill of silence

How you jump ---
Trepanned veteran,
Dirty girl,
Thumb stump.

Sylvia Plath

[...]

(font2)(schwarz)keith caputo / life of agony / river runs red:

I got the razor at my wrist
%27cause I can%27t resist
I%27ve got this fever burnin%27 fist
That does as I wish
But when I get downtown
And see what%27s around
I just know there%27s got to be
A better place to be found

Oh, God help me

The river runs red and I think I%27m dyin%27

Well I know there%27d come a day
When my mind would say "Hey are you afraid"
Well all I know is that I been down here tryin%27
Well, I%27ll bleed on trough the night
I suppose I%27ll be dead by the morinig light
So don%27t be suprised if you mind when you find me

The river runs red and I think I%27m dyin%27
The river runs red and I think I%27m dyin%27

Oh, God help me

...

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